Mon cher

PASA Meeting. Tech savvy = an excuse to beat you all up.

Controversial power points.

Indecisive when it comes to cell phones. (Either the tiny one, or the other tiny one...)

Trying to save my chores for the weekends. Give me a day, meet me in a secret wheat meadow, brush through crop circles and hanging plant spiders. Rachel is the best. I want Rachel to stay home.

Is the humiliation that important? We're all used. I use euphemisms. I wish for the violin lady to stay back in her dark place. I've got a lotta work to do, but no will to do it. She said I should. just. no matter what. just. do it. I'm ballooning inside. I have far too many anxiety attacks - these make me stumble and weaken especially when I wanna be arrogant. I'm a hot mama.

And then it rains, reigns, reigns, pounding against my back, finite resources and hands I could crumble in surrounding my worries... I waste away.